Day 44: My part in all of this.

I'm a bit sad today. At first I was just mad. Why do I have to do this when I want to do that--and that needs to be done anyway? Stupid Avi making me... So I had to take a breath and figure out why I was so mad; it turns out that I'm really just sad that I have only a week left. Anger is easier for me to deal with.

Once I figure that out I just let myself be sad. It is legitimate. I let all of the feelings get into my work and I feel much better. I'm still sad, but at least I know what I'm feeling and why. I could have used this superpower years ago!

And back to the stones, Mark, because that is what is needed for the family that you serve.

I leave the orchard when I have to poo, because, you know, don't poo where you eat. So I go down Runge Lane to a secluded spot in this busy part of the desert to do my business. I'm so glad that Runge Lane is being used!

Yesterday I had to finish two apartment structures for the cucumbers. Of course now that I'm leaving I've figured out a great way to make them stronger. At least the next persons to do this will know, if they didn't already.

Then I had to clear this field of stones again. The way this works is that the field gets plowed, the stones get removed, the field gets plowed again, the stones get removed, compost is added, the rows are tilled, and plants grow. It is a lot of work, but the fruits of that labor is so worth it.

So I walk across the field, crossing the short end, and I bring my trusty five gallon bucket with me. As I'm walking I fill the bucket with the rocks and stones that I find. Then I take and empty the bucket in to the wheelbarrow. It sometimes takes three bucket loads to get all of the way across the field. And I'm bent over for most of the time. I'm going to have the strongest back at Shorecrest.

This morning I finished the small field where the new greenhouse will be and started the larger field. Crap, but this is hard. I know, I know. I signed up for this. I'm not whining--much--I'm just saying how tough it is.

Here are some images of the construction going on. I don't know if I'll be here for the completion of the greenhouse, but at least I've done my part.